| Fcuked Xanga... |
[Jun. 24th, 2005|11:59 am] |
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Xanga's being fucked these days. grawr! |
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| This song... |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|06:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  Confused on my next move | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | No Regrets --Robbie Williams | ] |
This song is how I feel right now... I guess.
Tell me a story
Where we all change
And we'd live our lives together
And not enstranged
I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...
No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
I know from the outside
We looked good for eachother
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother
I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live
No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
(We've been told you stay up late)
I know they're still talking
(You're far too short to carry weight)
The demons in your head
(Return the videos they're late)
If I could just stop hating you
(Goodbye)
I'd feel sorry for us instead
Remember the photographs (insane)
The ones where we all laugh (so lame)
We were having the time of our lives
Well thank you it was a real blast
No regrets / they don't work
No regrets / they only hurt
Write me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
Everything I wanted to be every
Time I walked away
Everytime you told me to leave
I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and
Everytime you smiled
I felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead
Here's a PART of the long poem I wrote. I didn't feel like typing all of it...
Love is the greatest regret of all times; it's an autocrat, a rope, a knife, an ocean, grabbing you tight, controls you, chokes you, stabs you and turns around and drowns you in your own tears of dour dolefulness. You can't elude or rid a true feeling, no matter how much it hurts. Even if it made me malaise and left a scar on my heart, my heart is full of cocoa butter. I still love you, no matter what you do, but it won't be for long, because you're fading away from me by the minute. I miss being in your arms, your sweet words and you, but it won't be that long anymore until I erase you forever.
me in bed
me in MY bed with my big white tee on
broken mirror/ blurry. Pretty cool. I'm in my bathing suit.
To all of y'all who think I have no eyes, that's how big my eyes are when they're normally open.
In my bed. lol, I look shy.
Toodles, darling... for now. |
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| long time. |
[Jun. 17th, 2005|02:47 pm] |
Haven't updated in a long time. Been busy. See xanga for more details I guess.
www.xanga.com/chameca
grrawr, kk tomorrow, and I have... yeaup.. so.. water park, bad idea? |
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| I'm bored as fuck this summer. |
[Jun. 9th, 2005|11:18 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  B O R E D | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Too early to be listening to music? | ] |
The Bebe logo hobo;; My precious.
Oh dear, oh dear.. I wish I had tons of money so I could shop at Bebe for everything I wear. I will when I'm rich& famous; shehehe. Ok wtf? Toodles, darling.. for now. |
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| boring. |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|06:42 pm] |
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boring day. Still no swimsuit (that fits me) so I can't go swimming. |
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| today. |
[Jun. 5th, 2005|09:30 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  EXTREMELY pissed off! !@#$ | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Behind Blue Eyes. --Limp Bizkit | ] |
Today.
I wake up today at FIVE THIRTY AM and thought I had lice because my hair/scalp was all itchy and my body was all pink [ewww] ... Then I woke up and saw a centipede. ahhh!! I think that's what made everything all nasty.. so yeh. I was wrong, cause then I took a shower and got all the dirty stuff off. yey. NO LICE! ok wtf? but yeh, I don't have it. I was scared/shocked for a while, heh. :) good. Ok I sound crazy.
Tired. 5:30, man! And I went to sleep at two :| So after I took the shower, I went downstairs, ate a fruit, and watched TBS: "Mamma's House" and "Saved By The Bell". I played a little piano afterwards and now I'm at UL! woohoo. ok whatever.
My plan is...
* Buy the Victoria's Secret swimsuit, which is really expensive, but I need another new one for this year. :) shehehe
* Watch Spiderman on TBS tonight at eight, cause that's a really cool movie ;) lol, I'm a dork.
* Go to the library and borrow that stupid AP book >=( I don't see why I have to study for high school. ergh
* Maybe go rent a movie for myself (hopefully "Harold and Kumar go to White Castle" if my parents decide they don't wanna watch anything with me.) since my mommy& daddy won't let me go ANYWHERE this summer (again, just like every other summer, gah), not even the movies with a friend. I mean wtf? I have to do all this academical work and work around the house and piano and all this stupid shit and I don't even get to go out and have some fun with my friends. The only person I can hang out with are prolly goodie two shoes Chinese girls. Not even an Asian boy. TOO STRICT. They don't ever let me have any fun, and I'm starting to get really, really mad, cause I am DYING to go somewhere. GRRRRRRR
okay, I have to go to work now... and get paid ;) prolly the best thing that's happened so far... but work :( not fun. Ok..
rawr. toodles, darling :D
BYEBYE ||[LATER]|| ;) |
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| Hiatus is awkward. |
[Jun. 3rd, 2005|09:39 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  so tired I can't think! ahh | ] |
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| | I don't know.... I'm too tired to know. | ] |
Hiatus is getting me bored. I really don't know what to write in LJ`s anymore... or ever. < sigh > whatever. |
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| Nambi. |
[May. 31st, 2005|03:53 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Rasmus. | ] |
Some people know this site now :(
I think I will go on hiatus for some of this summer. |
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| The Wallflowers |
[May. 30th, 2005|02:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  very hyper | ] |
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| | The Wallflowers! | ] |
I'm going to get The Wallflowers` newest CD, "Rebel, Sweetheart".
It was in stores six days ago.. ahh, omfg! Awesome, man. ahh ahh.
ok wtf? I'm going to stfu now. I'm so hyper... woohoo (ok wtfcuk) |
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| yesterday. |
[May. 29th, 2005|12:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | blank. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | birds chirping | ] |
Yesterday I went to a Chinese party yesterday. That's why I didn't post. It was okay, I guess. I went to my piano lesson today too. I did okay, I guess, due to the fact that I only played two hours of piano today, heh. I want to go to the movies! -any movies in mind? I can swim now! All I need is a new bathing suit cause the old one is too small. :D The pool is offically open. That's awesomely sweet, man! I'm happy! wheeee, ok wtf? I'm getting hyper, so toodles, darling. :) |
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| YIM! |
[May. 27th, 2005|03:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | knives chopping | ] |
I finally downloaded YIM [Yahoo! Instant Messenger]. I'm so happy :) yippidedoda (ok wtf?). Now I can talk to Jtvo. >=) This is (extremely) wonderful. I downloaded a program. Miraculous. Whatever. Later! |
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| my last entry. |
[May. 26th, 2005|11:38 am] |
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| | COMPLACENT_____ | ] |
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| | Nambi being annoying. | ] |
My last entry (made on May 25th) was about the last few days (mainly the lock-in), but it didn't want to post it publically, cause it wasn't written very well. That's why it's private :) Sorry. |
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| excitedly anxious |
[May. 24th, 2005|12:59 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | excitedly anxious!!! | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Hello, Goodbye -- The Beatles. | ] |
Woke up ~> Got my hair french braided >;P ~> Breakfast ~> Vivian comes over ~> School --> Memorial Auditorium for graduation ~> Go back to school and digging in dumpster trash for my retainer with Norris (which I didn't find and now I'm extremely pissed) ~> home... I also lost my retainer >=`( and it's two-hundred dollars for repairs. ugh
Graduation is finally over, which is great... but I'll miss you all so dearly. :`( You're the world's greatest/bestest. Thanks for everything.
I'm going to go take a nap now. I'm so excited!!! >=)
THE LOCK-IN IS ONLY HOURS AWAY! Let's make it a memory to last a lifetime. Lock-in to the Kodak moment, here we come (ok wtf?). bye!
" Memory " -- Sugarcult.
Good song. How I feel. :|
All I want is for you to break my heart. That way, I can say, "I'm over you". Yet, no matter what you do, I'll still be loving you. You're my everything, and I'm not going to let that fall apart. I might not see you again after tonight, but if I do, I'll be sure to try my best to win you over again, because when I was with you, I was truly happy. I'm not going to let all that fall apart just because you changed. I know you still got your old, real self inside of you. |
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| ugh. |
[May. 23rd, 2005|04:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bouncing off the Walls -- Sugarcult. | ] |
>=`( < tears >
1. I'm being attacked by killer mosquitoes, and I'm itching... a lot. I just received at least 9 bites by now... by one mosquito. That makes 16 bites total. ugh
2. Graduation/Promotion is tomorrow. I'll never see some of you again :( You guys will always have a place in my heart.
3. My computer has been fucking itself up for the past hour and a half. >=[ ergh!!!
+ the 'PLUS' side (lmao, that was retarded.) wheeeeee. w00t.
1. The lock-in tomorrow :D We don't have to go to school on Wednesday >;P
2. The Waterfront Park field trip. Ahh, that was so fun. Lmao Gini, that note I wrote you for your birthday when you were going out with Chase, LOL! Wading in the water. Piggy back rides, uncontrollable pyramids, races, that one red rover game or w/e.
3. These last years have been too cherish-able. I love all you you guys, and you've become almost family to me. I'll see some of you people next year, but until then, you'll always stay in my heart. :)
4. My auntie and uncle are coming over tomorrow. wheeeeee
lol, I doubt (many of) you people know what a heart looks like. It doesn't look like '<3'. I mean, sure, it's okay if you use "<3" and you know what a heart really looks like, but if someone asks you what a heart looks like, and you say "<3", you're a f_cking dumbass!!!
< sigh > I'm practicing some piano, taking a shower and then taking a nap. wheeee fun!! Then, I'm picking out from the three graduation shoes that my mommy brought, trying out my graduation outfit, vacuuming my room to make it sparklin` clean when my auntie and uncle comes over! woot. Then eating something, shower, painting my nails, getting my haircut/trim-ish thingy and... sleep time. =] wtf? That was retarded. yeh, there goes the rest of my day, I suppose. |
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| The Lock-In. |
[May. 22nd, 2005|01:03 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | extremely aggravated. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the radio in the background | ] |
How can you sabotage people at the lock in if they don't let you bring anything? They check your purses too! You can't just put super glue and whipped cream into your bra or something. I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO SOMETHING TO _______!! [You have to help me with it Parastoo!] If you want to help sneak something for me, feel free to. OO! My mommy and daddy bought some whipped cream (original AND strawberry flavored) muahahahaha >=) Middle school is almost over. =`( I'll miss you all. The memories will stay in my heart forever (unless I get amnesia, and I don't want that to happen, because) with you guys, "it was the best of times, it was the worst of times". That's all I can say. I'm going to miss "all y'all". One day, when we look back, we'll remember the good times with the bad, the tears with the laughs& the fights with the retreats. You guys will always have a place in my heart. Letting go will be too perverse and arduous. =[
"I cannot heave my heart into my mouth." --Cordelia from King Lear
OMGosh, my love for you guys is SO ginormous; without y'all, I'd be dead& that ain't no lie. (heh, I'm gangster.) By the way, I'm actually reading King Lear, `Smoody& it's super awesome!
No one ever leaves comments on my LiveJounal. :(
I barely know anyone with LJ though... < tsk tsk > *pouts |
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| Livejournal. |
[May. 21st, 2005|12:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the lawn mower. | ] |
Heh, this is my third [?] LiveJournal I made... hopefully the last one too. If you think it's ugly, tell me how to make it better or just deal with it ;) toodles, darling. |
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